12 a.m. LIFE and DEATH!

It was a concert I was playing at the age of 14. My Guruji, Pt. Kishan Maharaj, and another famous Indian artist, Pt. Mani Lal Nag, were scheduled to perform after us.


The singing started and I joined in. As I was about to take my first opening solo, I was shocked to see Guruji in the audience. With him it was always “do or die”. Meaning either you play well now, or you were dead anyway when he gets to see you afterwards!


Without caring for anything else, I gave it the best shot of my life. At the back of my mind was an image of all the other senior disciples that I had seen getting a piece of his mind after concerts that they had played, which he didn’t appreciate at all. The one thing he hated was “timidity” on stage. And that is all that I remembered as I went for it.


So there I was, playing one piece after the other. The harder, more mathematical the better! I didn’t give a damn to what the singer was doing on stage— all that mattered was my skin! Anyway, the concert ended and I felt I had done my Guruji proud by playing all that I had learnt. Following the concert, Guruji and the sitar artist mesmerized the audience!


12 am Midnight… in his hotel room, I got one of the most important lessons of my music life.


As I entered his room (which is the tradition after a concert), one look at his face and I knew what I was in for. He actually refused to look at me and kept watching the news on the T.V. for some time. Standing there, I felt it was easier to die than to keep standing dreading what was coming next.


Finally he looked at me asking me to sit down. Pause…silence, that was deafening!


First sentence out of his mouth: “Who do you think you were playing with tonight?”

Second: “You ruined my entire reputation.”

Third: “If this is how you are going to play, please stop playing Tabla now.”

Fourth: “The moment you played your first piece you knew that this singer was weak in rhythm and you kept playing more and more difficult things?”